As some of you may have noticed, I took a “blog-ation”. The loss of my old friend was very hard for me (and thank you to all of you who expressed your condolences).
In the past week I have struggled with reality, saying my last goodbyes and accepting that it was ok to cry. Years may have passed, and in comparison to the rest of my life- his role may have been ‘small’ but the hole that he left in my heart when he passed felt huge, the emptiness was real and hurt like hell.
I am by no means one of those people who is big on “SIGNS” but it’s been surreal with Danny’s passing from day one. From the dream I had of him hours before he passed, to the strong urge I felt to leave him a message, to being reunited with 2 old friends whom I had hard feelings towards. I wont bore you with the details, but I do believe he is giving signs that he is here with me, telling me life is just too short for the bullsh–.
On the way to the wake, my mother said to me “You know, it’s kind of crazy but I guess you just never know HOW MANY lives you touch in life, until its over”.
Danny touched my life in ways I cannot put to words, and I am sure he was not even aware of it. Saying good bye was not easy- and very honestly, I don’t typically find comfort in the mass cards they hand out… but Danny’s hit home. Once again, I felt like he was talking to me. So I decided to put it up here to share with all of you, for people to maybe find one day on line when they are feeling a hole in their heart and finding it hard to move on.
In Loving Memory of
Daniel James Goepel
May 20, 1980 – July 6, 2009
…and now I am moving on, as he would want… with him always in my heart.
