Before I was a Mom, I thought I had life figured out. I was the Carrie Bradshaw of Staten Island, blogging to the world about my day to day as “single city gal” – and thought that was as “complicated” as it got- HA!
Before I was a Mom, I spent my summer at The Jersey Shore with guidos and fist pumpers….
I never imagined I’d be so thankful that I married the polar opposite and how being an amazing father would make him so much sexier than any “situation” hours at the gym could bring.
Before I was a Mom, I bought new clothes every week, got my nails done and never had roots (or grey hair).
I envisioned I’d balance motherhood in stride, as a working mom, every day with a fresh face of make up and perfectly styled hair. -Hey, if Heidi Klum could do it, so could I!
Who said kids weren’t the perfect accessory?
Before I was a Mom, Mr.Complicated and I swore our babies would never be the ones whaling at the top of their lungs in department stores…
"Not Our Kid!"
I thought motherhood would fall naturally in place and that Postpartum Depression only meant you wanted to harm your babies… I had no idea how wrong I was, that it would ever effect me, or that I would ever have the strength to overcome it.
Before I was a Mom, I couldn’t imagine the sacrifices I would make … how hard some of them would be… or how easily 3 simple words “For The Kids” – would justify my making them. I swore I’d NEVER be a “Stay at home Mom” … “like my mother”… or be anything “like my mother” because… Before I was a Mom, I never appreciated my own mothers sacrifices, understood her- or thought she would ever understand me.
Before I was a Mom, I could never imagined “potty training” would appear on my lists of greatest accomplishments, how much it hurt to step on a toy car….or a LEGO or that sometimes seeing your child’s feelings hurt could hurt you more. I didn’t know anything about Mommy Guilt, what worrying (REALLY) was or that I would never again be able to go to sleep without worrying about something child-related- no matter how trivial.
Before I was a mom, I never knew how truly blessed I would be because of all of these complicated things I didn’t know …Before I was a Mother.
(This post was written participating in Mama Kat’s Writer’s Workshop)
